Grass Ain't Always Greener on the Other Side

 
 
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It's green where you water it, and I know we got issues, baby, true, true, true, but I'd rather work on this with you than to go ahead and start with someone new, as long as you... Wait, no. That's not the point of this blog post. But I can't help it that every time I hear that phrase "The Grass ain't always..." that song pops up to my mind.

Extra brownie points if you got that song title right WITHOUT googling it. I don't believe it was coincidence that last night as I was fighting through the piles of clothes and rubbish that my room has acquired over my laziness of a month that I would find exactly the kind of reminder that I need to stop being so frustrated and childish. I fight with this constantly. I don't know why I strive so hard to reach my goals and then continue fighting after for new goals. I'm a very goal oriented person, I know. But the thing is that it turns into greediness in my life, and as I obsess over new clothes and shoes, makeup, wigs, and Homegoods merch (let's be honest. Nobody can say they walked through Homegoods and DIDN'T PURCHASE LIKE EIGHT THINGS THEY DIDN'T NEED BUT STILL LOOKED PRETTY) then I begin to become dissatisfied with my life.

My wonderful. freaking. great. blessed beyond compare. life.I have a supportive family, a loving boyfriend who wants to spend time with me and loves spoiling me, friends who get as excited as I do when I text them a funny GIF or Bible verse to reflect on, clothes on my back, too much food, a house that isn't flooded, and a car that runs me to work every morning. I have a healthy body and a gym membership. I have so many things and I sat griping to myself in my bedroom the other day for literally. no. reason.I sat down on my bed and pulled out my devotional for the night only to accidentally pick up my "notes" journal from underneath my bible. Curious as to what I wrote inside, I opened it up to only be hit with "the thankful notebook". The last entry dated February 5th.

February 5th.

Remind me what month I'm in again? Oh, that's right. Flipping September. Way to be thankful, Char. Good job.The entire goal was to remind myself of something I was thankful for every day. It didn't always have to be something that was new but I tried to make it new. I have so many blessings that every day for an entire year, I couldn't describe them all. Especially when you take off six months to do what? Forget about it? Ironic since I've been moaning and wallowing in self pity among my piles of clothes on my floor. I grabbed a red pen and wrote out what I was thankful for immediately upon finding the notebook. What a reminder.

Stress and anxiety fill my life every day. I haven't had a weekend off in a month until this past weekend and I needed it badly. I need days off or nights off with a break from everything. I need to unplug from the internet, and just focus on something that works my brain without being critiqued. Hairstyling and writing my novels relieve my stress by letting me be free and work my magic with what I love. It's an outlet for me to express what I can do without someone chiming in their opinion and orchestrating it. I need more weekends or breaks like that in this craziness. I need this time for me to sit back and show how thankful I am for this life and not to take anything for granted. The Lord gives and the Lord takes away.

1 Thessalonians 5:18 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

I've been reflecting a lot on what I've been given and struggling with wanting something that somebody else has. I want the blog of so and so or the Instagram following of what's her name and the list goes on. The problem that our society has right now (I'm 100% guilty of thinking this) is that we throw away anything that we can't make work for us immediately and never give any real time and effort into our projects. Nothing worth anything is going to happen over night. Sorry to break it to ya, but that person's grass is greener because they actually took time to water it and wait.

Just my reminder of today and my challenge for the rest of the week, set a time apart to think alone and reflect on what you have and what you've been given. Forget what pressing matters you have and just relax. God's got this. Now take the burden off your shoulders and give thanks. As one of my friends hashtags underneath her photos, #getaftergrateful . Need I say more?

Colossians 3:15 15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.

xoxo, Char